Lakers Game

I guess i am worried about going to the lakers game with all of the people there. I am losing awareness and am dominated by ego consciousness. I am not functional right now and am almost becoming detached from reality. I am trying to open my mind up more and get honest with myself about my life. I am playing xbox and stretching which feel good.

Time to Start

I guess its time for me to start to get better. I was sent away from my family. I think the process is going to be painful but its my way to freedom. I want to be a free being. i want to be karma free. clear my subconscious of all my memories. be able to live in the present moment. be abundant, successfull, healthy, and realize my full potential on this planet. i am grateful for my parents, my sisters, my family and everyone else is who has been suportive.

i am getting tired but ready to change.

My Parents

wtf am i supposed to do? my parents are very irresponsible. but they are not alone. so they seperate themselves from me and then try to get me help. how about not seperating yourself from me and the first place and lifting me up to health.

60 minutes

So how do we change the world? the world is such a wierd place. we have problems in the u.s and i have problems then people in Haiti have problems. i see the world getting out of control and i am scared and i want to do something to help. how do i help people in Haiti? is it money, i don't think so. i think we have to change the way people think in the world. what is the cause of poverty in haiti and the world. what is the cause of the problems in the world? i don't know but i think that i am playing a role in what i am seeing "out there" there are millions of bits of information that i am not aware of in my life. my conscious mind is only aware of 7 to 9. ha. what the f do I know about whats going on?

A course in miracles teaches that there is nothing wrong going on and so does Ken Wilbur and other masters. The masters tell us that there is nothing wrong going on. how can that be? the war brings light to this. why the heck are we at war? its a joke and i like the soldiers but how can we be fighting people in the world?

know thyself man know thyself

we need to change the way people think

i can make an impact as a young person. I have to bring light to the way people are. wtf is going on in the world?

the purpose of life is not to be entertained or buy things being consumers and stuff like that. one by one we have to change and become the people we want to be in the world.

there are so many illusions in the world. we need to raise the collective consciousness of humanity.

On my way

I want to make a living by writing about meditation

being involved in science buddhist studies

exposing people to memetics and false limitations

acim there is no world i am responsible for everything i am experiecing

what what do you mean? there is no world. what about what i see isn't that table real that dog my mom dad sisters huh

Yo

What is the purpose of life?

Well I don't know. I think its about being abundant successful happy moving in a direction of accomplishing your desires, achieving their full potential, meditating,

Nando was completely lost. he didnt know what to do.

i am going through a life crisis at 21. i am in the process of evaluating my life and helping myself.

our culture is so extreme. working so hard for women so much stress. go to other countries and people

i am apreciating the astonishing fact of being alive nando parrado

Wow

Nando and Roberto trekked 37 miles in the Andes to get help. Wow what an amazing story transcendental story of the human will.

i am simply amazed by this story of human triumph. i am crying because of it

if you want to protect something simply give it away

we forget how special it is to be alive its a gift. use it well. scene from saving private ryan

Free Write

So i have decided to keep writing and feel like I have a forum to express myself and express what I know and feel like in order to share with others.

The psychiatric community. I saw a psychiatrist yesterday and basically argued with him. I feel good about myself because we should put these people in thier place. This guy talked in a slow tone sending out the vibes that he never gets mad, never is wrong and knows what to do. This guy seemed to get startled by me and seemed to not apreciate me talking back to him. No human being can know whats best for any other and this includes so called "experts" in any field. If you are a truly loving human being you are willing to let nature know whats best for someone.

what an amazing story of human spirit and triumph. It reminds me of Shashank Redemption and the tagline keep living or keep dying no its something else i think.

these guys were pretty good looking they had sunglasses. how the fuck did that happen?

A little about my life

So I guess i am in an awful position right now. I am constantly thinking all the time, worried, and trying to get my life together. I am a big believer in Bruce Lipton and his new research on epi genetics, explaining that our genes are not biological newtonian related.

Alive is an amazing story of the human spirit. Nando Parrado and Roberto Canessa spent ten days climbing the Andes to get help. I am watching a history channel show on the Andes mountain survivors. Wow its amazing. Life is a gift and we should treat it like that. I am here to do my best to turn around my life and recieve the help i want and need to get better. I know people will support me and i know that i will do everything i know to get through this